Mary Brancaccio

Mary Brancaccio is a poet and teacher. Her poetry collection, Fierce Geometry, is just out from Get Fresh Books Publishing. Brancaccio's poetry has appeared in Naugatuck River Review, Minerva Rising, Edison Literary Review, Lake Affect Magazine and Adana, among others. Her poem, "Unfinished Work," was recently nominated for a Pushcart Prize. She is included in several anthologies of poetry, including Writing the Land: Maine, Writing the Land: Northeast, Farewell to Nuclear, Welcome to Renewable Energy (a response to the Fukushima nuclear disaster) and Veils, Halos and Shackles: International Poetry on the Oppression and Empowerment of Women. Brancaccio has an MFA in Poetry from Drew University. She lives in South Orange, New Jersey. Her website is ghostgirlpoet.com.

Yuji’s Dream 

Yuji Hyakutake, when you woke in the dark 

to climb Kagoshima’s hills, 

what drove you? I imagine 

your sketchbook of constellations 

your neck twisted between page 

and telescope, marking the stars: 

Libra, Hydra, the Crow. 

Your search for a fresh sight. 

When you first saw your comet 

did you think, I must be dreaming? 

So many years of waiting. So many 

moves to find darker and darker skies. 

Once, on a roadside outside Flagstaff 

I stood with my lover in pitch dark 

staring in wonder at its sky paint. 

Nearby, invisible to us, cattle lowed 

their loamy stench filling our nostrils 

as a green and yellow tail splashed 

across the clear night sky in Arizona. 

His warm hand tightened on mine. 

I’m not sure who I am anymore, 

he whispered. Those who wander 

in darkness, in cold, swamped 

by second-guessing, plumb 

starlit skies, as if what’s older 

more magnificent than we are 

might offer an answer. 

Yuji, you died too soon. 

But you lived to witness 

Ulysses hitting your comet’s tail 

detecting X-rays, new 

molecules, distortions 

of magnetic fields, measuring 

a wake three hundred million miles -- 

the longest ever recorded -- 

three times the span between 

Earth and our white-hot sun.

Last night I lay in autumn grass 

watching dusk fall, watching stars -- 

some of them long dead -- rising 

into focus against a darkening sky. 

They are always there, aren’t they? 

The stars, the comets, the supernovas. 

Always. But often we’re too blind to see.




Yuji’s Quest 

A comet returns to darkness -- 

it only shines in memory. 

Mine was brighter than many. 

I wandered the night 

feeling my way with fingertips 

as if blind, my feet halting, unsure 

of earth’s solidity. Only in deep 

murkiness did I grasp 

the quality of light. I sensed 

my path with ears nose toes. 

I saw without illumination 

knew truth even when cast 

in heavy shadows. I sought 

with heart not head. 

I love this truth because 

it was birthed within me, born 

of yearning that sent me staring 

into the sky, searching for a miracle 

I could put my name to. 

Once I was you, a seeker -- 

always restless, always chasing 

illusions, and why not? 

Hundreds of dreams 

shoot across night’s sky. 

The trick is to find them first. 

I improved my odds, moved 

further and further into Kagashima’s hills 

deeper and deeper into the gloom. 

When the first one appeared 

I thought, This is it, this is the one. 

But I learned how rare it is to find 

a comet seen with the naked eye. 

Most remain unnamed and 

unremarkable. But a second one appeared. 

I waited two rainy nights for proof. 

I nearly went mad: doubt is a stone 

in the throat -- impossible to swallow. 

Time felt interminable, shame of error 

loomed in my mind. How long and hard 

my journey for validation. How rare the win.

What an idiot I’d been and now 

now I would be exposed as 

a fraud, chaser of fame, the great 

master of all fools. 

But I was right. Months later, photos 

painted my comet against a California sky 

high in piney mountains, or trailing 

a desert in the dead of night 

saluted only by cacti and other 

lone watchers of the heavens. 

Much later, space probes spewed 

reams of data from my comet’s wake 

new molecules from our sun’s birth 

gasses and magnetic fields splayed out 

in its long wake of light -- a dragon’s tail 

long enough to wrap the sun and earth. 

This, I thought, is my reward 

for all I sacrifice. But after glory 

where is the joy in living day-to-day? 

And if I died too young, I only reflected 

the truth revealed to me: not omen 

of war or plague or conflagration 

but the brevity of existence 

as fragile as a leaf out of season 

fading and falling, lost to a quick 

north wind or a killing frost. 

The comet left as quickly as it came. 

Again, I was in the dark 

finding my way, all of my senses 

charged with an electric truth.



The Strange Satisfaction of Nothing to Say: 

Dream of an Ornate Inscription Sewn to the Seat of My Pants 

If I had eyes in the back of my head 

I could glean my mother’s wisdom off my jeans 

but I was driving by the seat of my pants 

and anyway, I forgot to read her words 

and left them behind, thought at the time 

I thought, what a nice inscription they would make 

carved into a plaque above my sink, or 

sewn into a pillow for a couch in a room 

I never visit. Such is the problem with dreams: 

the signifiers are all there, but I fail 

to comprehend them. Instead, I spin my psyche’s 

backroads, driving too fast on the wrong side 

headed in the opposite direction, worrying about 

what I forget to put to rest. There is no closure 

no final words over an open grave, no last 

reconciliation. Only the sweat beads from 

the Mad Hatter’s brow: I am late late late 

for a very important date. I remember 

none of it. Not the day or place or action 

I agreed to. None of it. Pity my poor memory. 

Instead I’m distracted by heavy morning fog 

and the unlikely appearance of an old friend

willing to go along for the ride. Hop on, dear one. 

There is a clock to keep and it’s ticking down. 

I am lost and ignorant, but at least I know where I am going.