Juan Wynn

Juan Wynn Jr. (1993-2023) was published in Platform Review in Winter, 2021. He was a poet from New Jersey and previously served as a writing consultant at Bloomfield College. He also taught at Blue Rock School, where he was facilitator of the poetry program. His work has appeared in Platform Review as well as The Banyan Review. Those of us here at ARTS By The People keep Juan’s spirit in our hearts for his family, friends, and community.

A Drive That Doesn’t End With Bullets

You are with your mother, your black mother,

on the way home from a quick run to the bank. 

You lean back the front seat & sleep the peace

of an 8-minute ride done a dozen times night or 

shine—this time night—until red & blue swirl 

across the dark stage & un-curtain your eyelids 


to the black & white behind your mother’s van. 

Your mind finally arrives to see you’re parked

right outside your house & the street is clear

of any bodies. & though your mother can tell  

you’re awake, she doesn’t rewind the tape,

doesn’t speak except to hard whisper Don’t go 

outside—her hand on yours undoing the seatbelt 

as you try to see the cruiser better, confirming 

they’re not here for your neighbors. & then, 

a shadow looms behind a flashlight beam. 

At your window is Officer 2 & history 

has shown he’s not the one to do the talking.  

On cue, Officer 1 approaches your mother

& calls attention to broken taillights  

you both know about already, his white face 

eclipsed in the rearview mirror. 

The chapstick between your middle & index 

as heavy as the weapon you never want 

mistaken in your hands. You want to drop it—

to bow your palms on your knees or press them 

against the glass pane but your body tightens,

knows to sit still. Meanwhile, Officer 2 walks 

underneath the streetlamp to the front bumper 

held with off-colored duct tape & string,  

your throat mining to explain the truth 

& the now-foolish job your sister did— 

& the no-good-reason-now why your mother 

allowed this. But he says nothing.  

Asking for her papers, Officer 1 says 

I’ll let you go with a break, if they’re in order. 

He checks them. You check him. Soft jaw, 

small face compared to your brown fists— 

a thought you don’t want but happens.

Your mother waits until they leave to move. 

He was checking my plates.

That’s why he made us wait so long. 

You both head inside. All your living intact.

You write the poem. All your living intact.

The Plea

The ghost of everything 

named dead in our fridge

settles in our stomachs. 

A small turkey perches 

on my sleeping lips. 

Next to a chicken.

A field of corn.  

This barn of a mouth

everything named dead 

doesn’t fight to be in.

My dear, please, 

this is the closest my body 

is to heaven & I am so, 

so tired of trying.


Questions and Answers, in No Particular Order 

            after Sarah Kay

I’ve heard it takes more to save your life. 

Are there dreams you’ve given up on?

Anything beyond the shore, I need to be on a boat.

What’s goes first in a homemade first-aid kit?

I gave myself habits I delight in.

What’s your favorite body part?

Transparency.


How much did you swallow?

A soundproof room.

Are you getting enough rest?

I always wear a seatbelt.

Did you apologize?

Yeah, it was my first time in a desert. Cold, under a blue black sky.

Did you learn your lesson?

Some things I like in twos.


Hands

The widowhood effect is the increased probability

a widow or widower will die soon 

after their spouse is gone, but not before 

facing the tough question, 

when was the last time

I held my own hand? 

Tonight, each of mine are interlocked 

underneath a table  

at my favorite diner. I text you, 

I think my hands know  

when I’m not holding yours. And half-jokingly add,

I think they’re alive. 

The next morning, you text me 

you woke up holding your own hand 

for the first time ever.

And I think to myself, this is how  

it begins. How the beating clock inside us 

resets to a countdown  

no one knows how long 

until zero. How love has done its job 

if it leaves the skin unfamiliar

and tells the body in the morning 

it was hungry all night. Granted,

we’re not married, and I don’t know 

what makes a man ready 

but if I say I do, then believe  

I’m brave enough 

for the endings I want.

               for M., the first poem, you inspired.